Wednesday, May 27, 2009


Don't get me wrong, i am not an atheist, nor am i a Christian, but you see i have been wishing or at least praying for something to happen. I can't tell you exactly what it is that i wished for, but i guess i could give you a very vague outline. I wished for that voice you long to hear at the end of every monotonous day, the scent of his cologne as he passes you in the hall, the sight of his unique style as he walks toward you from the other side of the room, the missing presence when he leaves from your side. Watching my pennies spin in circles after circle as it continues its way to the bottom of the wishing well, a pool full of faith, full of hope, and that's when i realized that what i wished for is not meant to be wished. People wish to have better health, why not just eat healthier? People wish to be rich, why not strive to be better in school or work? We tend to wish to want things, but really what is a wish, the miniscule changes that what you want is going to happen on its own? We are suppose to wish for things that we cannot obtain on our own, or at least have no control over, like getting a new liver so that we don't die of liver cancer, or a heart for a heart transplant. I believe that a wish is the fear of the mind to want to do something merley because it is out of the norm, to basically test the human nature of being lazy, of being embarrassed, of being in fear. So at the end of the day, i wish, not to wish anymore, but to take action, to not be in fear of fear itself. To take a bold stance, and carry out what i want, because at the end of the day, all it takes is a little courage and the relentless supression of fear, embarrassment, etc.

What do you feel about my writings, please be truthful?

1 comment:

  1. i read, "watching my penises spin in circles" Fail :X

    I think you're improving in your writing. However, I feel your views are somewhat naive. And you go in a really, really roundabout way of explaining. :X